Thalia @ Pictures in the Words

I'm Thalia! I run a book blog called Pictures in the Words and I hope to be an editor for YA fiction. I'm a GoodReads refugee!



Currently Reading

The Martian
Andy Weir
Progress: 31/369 pages
The Letters of J.R.R. Tolkien
J.R.R. Tolkien, Humphrey Carpenter
Progress: 193/432 pages
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix
J.K. Rowling
Progress: 43/766 pages
The Children of Húrin
J.R.R. Tolkien, J.R.R. Tolkien
Progress: 313/313 pages


Big Fat Disaster - Beth Fehlbaum

I'll put it simply--this book is painful for me to read.


Not necessarily because the writing is bad--it's subpar, like most YA books seem to be these days--but because of how much I identify with Colby. 


Not in the way she handles things, or the way she speaks, or the way she lives her life. I don't have an issue with overeating the way she does, but nonetheless, I know exactly what she feels. I'm easily triggered by depictions or descriptions of self-harm and suicide. They're touchy subjects for me for multiple reasons, and letting death and suicide and self-harm be handled without proper severity or respect for the damage they all do, that's what really gets me angry.


So Colby talking about wanting to take the knife and cut off her fat? Her attempted suicide that results in the death of her cousin? Colby literally not caring at all that her cousin is dead? None of that is okay with me. I almost got sick on the plane reading all this.


So I don't really know how I feel. Is it good or bad that it elicits such a reaction from me?